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Requiem09
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 I have a bit of an issue.
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Well, I have read a bit of the Fae information and I really think that I am a fae. I have the ability to not only take in energy, but I also do what I can to make the energy positive before I take it in. However, I also believe that I have a weak spot for negative energy. My mother has told me of times, when my age was in the single digits, when she would wake up in the middle of the night to find me standing in the center of the hallway which, during the night, was pitch black. To the point where she had to cut on the light to even see me there. I found this wierd concidering that most children, including me, were quite uncomfortable in the dark at that age. She also told me about how I used to tell her that the moon was an eye that was looking at me, which I do recall seeing the moon as an eye once or twice in my early teen years.
As I stated I prefer positive energy but sometimes I do get negative instead. In recent cases of this happening, I have absorbed negative energy and then spread it around. I took it in and immediately became angry and walked around yelling at people for the smallest things, ignoring people, I even swore at people a few times. All of this is according to the later account of the people that I verbally attacked. Most of these times the only thing I remember is being around negative energy and becoming angry, everything after that is just.........blank. It scares me because one of the only times I remember having this happen, I had thoughts of harming the people around me for no reason. By nature I am not a violent person, so this worries me.
Do I have some kind of mental problem or is this possible? Am I being manipulated by energy? How can I stop it?
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 Posted: Thu May 21, 2009 10:25 pm
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Both are possible, and could be acting as a catalyst to the other. You might also be out of balance from having preferred positive energy exclusively.
Think of a pendulum. Most people gently swing across the neutral line in the middle, bad days, good days. You, by focusing on only positive, are like having the pendulum tied up really high on the positive side. Only the pendulum is really heavy so when that line breaks it swings suddenly and drastically into the 'negative' side.
I've seen something similar with otherkin and even vampires to a degree. They develop or claim to have a "dark-something" side that they say is responsible for their losing self control over stuff. Once these people have actually sought to integrate this separated and enclosed part of themselves they have developed much more control and an even keel emotionally.
Just another potential.
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Posted: Thu May 21, 2009 11:59 pm
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Requiem09
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Thank you. I will definately try and work on not focusing on the positive so much. Although it will take some time. I tend to cringe away from negative things.
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Posted: Fri May 22, 2009 12:32 am
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I don't see anything that screams "FAE!" from what you just described, in all honesty. Like I'm sure I've already said, otherkin and non-kin are capable of the same "abilities".
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Posted: Fri May 22, 2009 1:02 am
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Requiem09
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Well to be straight up with you, I don't exactly know what I am, but I know there is some stuff that I think I can do and that I have felt, that doesn't exactly scream "human!" either. Thanks for your opinion though. Maybe you're right, I could be anything other than a fae, but for now that is what I have identified most with, other than human. Still researching.
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Posted: Fri May 22, 2009 1:14 am
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Re: I have a bit of an issue.
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| Most of these times the only thing I remember is being around negative energy and becoming angry, everything after that is just.........blank. |
I would suggest that you start doing some "formal" energy work (according to a set system, rather than just winging it, if that's what you've been doing) and then see if it improves.
If it doesn't - if you have blackouts for any reason, you need to seek medical help. If those blackouts are connected in any way to anger it is even more important.
If you are concerned that someone will think you're "crazy" then go to a therapist, rather than to a psychiatrist, and just explain that you are interested in New Age, Wicca, eclectic paganism or anything else that you feel makes sense and is more socially acceptable. Explain what you are experiencing and see what they say.
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| Well to be straight up with you, I don't exactly know what I am, but I know there is some stuff that I think I can do and that I have felt, that doesn't exactly scream "human!" either. Thanks for your opinion though. Maybe you're right, I could be anything other than a fae, but for now that is what I have identified most with, other than human. Still researching. |
What doesn't scream "human"?
When you hear hooves, expect horses rather than zebras.
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Posted: Fri May 22, 2009 3:49 am
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Requiem09
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Thanks y'all.
Also, one more question. Is there a way to desipher between a dream/ vision and a past life memory?
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Posted: Fri May 22, 2009 2:49 pm
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| Requiem09 wrote: |
Thanks y'all.
Also, one more question. Is there a way to desipher between a dream/ vision and a past life memory? |
The truth is No.
The brain goes through the exact same processes when you wake up and remember a dream that was just a dream, as when you wake up and remember a dream that featured a past life memory.
Dreams are highly unreliable like that.
Past life regressions are possibly even less reliable.
Heck, in reality, there's no "reliable" way what so ever to tell whether what you believe about yourself is truth or not.
Which is why it's imperative that people take the time to think things through and make sure they don't latch onto the first kintype that comes to mind.
Don't rush, take the time you need to take to feel sure you "know" yourself.
If there's one thing human beings excell at (and that is us otherkin included) it's lying to ourselves, consciously and subconsciously.
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Which is why it's imperative that people take the time to think things through and make sure they don't latch onto the first kintype that comes to mind.
Don't rush, take the time you need to take to feel sure you "know" yourself. |
I definitely agree. I had a friend who at first thought he was a non-kin with an odd talent for metalworking, but after some soul searching came to believe he was a gremlin. Then, after a tarot card reading, he began to believe he was a metalworking fae, and now after plenty of research, more soul searching, and some aura scanning he has realized he is a dwarf.
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I am soooo sorry but I have another question. Does energy have anything to do with light? Like if you can change energy can you change the light too? Is that possible?
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Posted: Mon May 25, 2009 2:44 pm
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metaphysical energy is not the same thing as physical light and can not affect that directly, however, your perception of energy can manifest as light and as such can give the "perceived" effect that it affects light.
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Posted: Mon May 25, 2009 4:03 pm
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I think your problem has nothing to do with what kind of otherkin you are I think your just very strongly empathic perhaps even an energy vampire and you're just letting the emotions that are in a "dark" energy get the better of you so that they control you instead of the other way around. When you feel that your emotional state doesn't reflect who you are clear your energy system of all dark energy and emotions that aren't yours then shield so that your emotions aren't affected by those around you.
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Question:
When you are taking in this energy, do you feel a need for it or are you just simply open to energy? This might help us help you.
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Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2009 7:09 pm
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